“I’m jealous.” “Why?” “Cause you’re going to be the prettiest one there.”
I’ve bent over backwards for you, and every other way possible. I’ve thrown away friendships becasue people just didn’t like you.. I was stupid and naive this whole time to have stuck up for you to everyone. I never understood why some people could hate you without even knowing you. But now all I realize is they had all the right in the world. It wasn’t just you, it was what you did and put me through. I’ve wasted the past numerous months, trying to please you, making things work, always saying sorry and it’s my fault, when this whole time I shouldn’t have been the one trying. Go have a few more drinks, and call up another girl, and the night that you see her, treat her as if she is your world. Just like you did to me. I should’ve stopped everything as soon as I found out the first time there was someone else.. Who ended up being my friend too. But I can really say Thank you for that at least, Because you made me open up to a stranger who I found out shared the most wonderful thing in my life.. so it seemed, at the time, which was you. I still feel guilty to this day for some of the things I have said to her, Because you made me such an angry person. I’ve never felt so relieved to get something off my chest, as I do right now. There is only so much you can do to try and make something work, But you don’t understand the meaning of effort.
“nothing. i was really looking forward for you coming home cuz i was wantin to make this work but you dont seem like you really want too.”
-Every little word that has came out of your mouth.. was bullshit.
I will never let another guy walk alll over me the way you did to me, and I will never let someone make me feel so guilty, and put every little blame on me.
